When I started writing this blog my cousin reminded me that it is more for me than anyone reading it. Today I woke up and heard my mothers voice asking me if I was alright? She has done this nearly every day for 26 years since she passed away. Mostly I answer that I am fine, or sometimes I say it could be better. Today I said I am not alright, I am unbelievably sad! I am also a bit teary! I am also a bit blind having left my contact lenses at home!
What a year! Worries about my job, finances and friends have weighed on my mind. Struggling into work on busy trains wearing masks and not seeing friends has not been easy. I think I am just exhausted I miss hugs! I know… I usually shy away from them, how things change!
I feel obligated to be in the office every day, more so that staff can see me and I can keep my job. I feel guilty spending money as everyone else is saving it! It is cold in the office, dull outside and I am going to just mull on this year!
To cheer myself up I did walk down Bond Street and the lights were very pretty.
I am sure I will look back on this blog in happier times and smile. Have a great week lovelies!